So you checked my journal...figuring I'll give you something to read. If you want to know what I'm doing I'll be more than happy to share... it's NOTHING. I'm not doing anything. I love you so much, but part of me feels like I'm breaking down inside. I want to believe you so badly when you say you never cheated on me, but I just can't. With Kristi, too much just doesn't add up. All I want is for us to grow old together and raise our children. I don't want my heart broken, but part of me feels like it is. Do you really unconditionally love me? Please if you did "something" just tell me.

and before the comments of  "you should leave him" start, i've signed a lease with him. so he and i are together for atleast the next year. so it's not so simple.
thanks